This past weekend, I was given press credentials to photograph a runway and red carpet at New York Fashion Week and it was an exhilarating experience. But it was also nerve-racking.
About 11 months ago, I picked up my first DSLR camera ever. Sure, like most other Americans, I’d used disposables and point and shoot cameras but a DSLR is a different kind of machine. If you’re using it to shoot manually (as I do), you really have to know what you’re doing. I step into rooms now and attempt to read the lighting so that my test shots can be as close to what I need as possible.
But anyway, a few weeks ago, a good friend of mine presented me with an opportunity to receive a press pass for NYFW, one of the most coveted press passes for a photographer in all corners of the world. And I, a novice, was going to be there. At first I said, “I’m not good enough. I don’t deserve this. I’m going to fail.” Then I realized that no one is ever good enough. Jordan wasn’t born with a basketball in his hand. Du Bois didn’t come out of the womb speaking words of wisdom. Everyone just takes opportunities to do and that’s how you know if it will or won’t work out.
So I tried. I shot almost 1,400 frames in about an hour and they came out looking pretty good. In a room with photography veterans, I held my own. It boosted my confidence and now I know that I do belong in the space with the greats. Not necessarily because I am a “great” yet but because it is the only way I ever will be.
Make developing your confidence a priority.